I stopped drinking when I was twenty one and for the first time in my life I began taking care of myself. It was because I was learning to love myself I decided to take action. Looking back, it was amazing how easily the weight came off. I'm sure it didn't seem like it at the time, although there was a period of bulimia and anorexia in that time. I ended up losing eighty pounds in eighteen months. At my lowest, I was 150 pounds.
I maintained my weight within ten pounds for about five years. Then I quit smoking. I gained twenty pounds. A beloved dog died. I gained another thirty. For the next few years it was a gradual gain until I hit 250 pounds. I started Weight Watchers and lost fifteen, gained ten. Back and forth. Then I lost my job. I gained twenty. Then ten. Then five. Back and forth until my current weight.
In all that time I tried Slimfast, diet pills, bulimia, anorexia, low carb, no carb, vegan, Weight Watchers, South Beach, Adkins, you name it and I probably tried it. Each time I had little success followed by more gain.
Today I'm starting this blog to hold myself accountable. My plan is to blog every day to keep myself on track. I really need to succeed this time. I need to learn to love myself again. I'm told I'm worth it. I'm hoping to believe that soon.